I've been in the random state of what I would call a "restless agitation." I'm stressed, irritated and in general not happy with work, with my life, with anything. That's not where I want to be. It's a very rough place to be, because I'm trying fill that emptiness with stuff. Stuff that doesn't matter, and won't bring me the peace and happiness that I'm looking for.
Thanksgiving night I decided to head out and see was Black Friday was all about. I had been sitting in my apartment, alone and just wanted to get out. What do I do, I go and buy stuff...stuff that I can use and will use, but it wasn't stuff that I had to get. It was fun to go shopping, but that lasted while I was out shopping. After I came home, nothing really changed...other than I had new clothes to hang in my closet.
Maybe life has become to mundane and complacent here...but do I really want to change it? Am I just stressed and things will improve? or am I going to look back and regret not changing something now and wish that I did in the future? What should I do with my life? Be the responsible working adult, who is in restless agitation...or pursuing my dreams, living life to the fullest, and happy? Personally, I like the second option...now just to figure out where that takes me...
