A couple of weeks ago I was talking to one of my brothers about how I sometimes feel like a very unmotivated individual. I'm sure there are people that would disagree with me (my brother for one)... I don't know if I can fully explain what I mean.
For all the excitement and adventure that comes with travel nursing there are also some cons that come along too. One major one for me is mental and emotional exhaustion, being a very introverted person it is hard to open up and make new friends, I'm also very independent and so I don't always make an effort to get to know people. That leads to social isolation which does eventually wear me down, I might not love to be the center of attention but I still crave that connection with a community...I just don't always want to put in the effort required.
Sometimes that isolation drives me to withdraw even more...the effort it would take to put myself out there seems overwhelming and then I feel unmotivated to do anything...even things that I would love to do that don't require leaving my apartment.
There are days that I feel like my dreams are unrealistic and my goals are so far out of reach..yet I know in my head that if I work towards them a little each day I'll eventually get there. Small steps...as I continue to move forward I will slowly reach the goal...persistence is key!
per·sist·ence
For all the excitement and adventure that comes with travel nursing there are also some cons that come along too. One major one for me is mental and emotional exhaustion, being a very introverted person it is hard to open up and make new friends, I'm also very independent and so I don't always make an effort to get to know people. That leads to social isolation which does eventually wear me down, I might not love to be the center of attention but I still crave that connection with a community...I just don't always want to put in the effort required.
Sometimes that isolation drives me to withdraw even more...the effort it would take to put myself out there seems overwhelming and then I feel unmotivated to do anything...even things that I would love to do that don't require leaving my apartment.
There are days that I feel like my dreams are unrealistic and my goals are so far out of reach..yet I know in my head that if I work towards them a little each day I'll eventually get there. Small steps...as I continue to move forward I will slowly reach the goal...persistence is key!
per·sist·ence
noun
- firm or obstinate continuance in a course of action in spite of difficulty or opposition
I think that is part of my problem...when things get difficult I'll give up without the encouragement of friends. When I look back at the difficult times I've had in my life there has always been someone there to encourage me to continue...to persevere.
- As a teenager there was someone from church that I would often call and talk to.
-When I wanted to leave nursing school because I thought it was to hard a couple of my classmates studied with me and wouldn't let me withdraw from my classes.
-Then in Lancaster I meet two of my best friends who where there through some rough times...and lots of ice cream (one of my comfort foods).
-When I left Lancaster and volunteered with Mercy Ships it was really challenging! Again, I ended up with one or two people who I felt like I could trust and opened up to them...those connections allowed me to complete my volunteer time.
(that is not an extensive list)
Maybe that's one of the things I'm learning about myself through this experience. I've haven't dug deep and kept going for myself...and instead have relied on what others. It could be that I need to develop persistence for myself, and that's not easy!
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