I don't even know where to start!!! So much has been happening the last couple weeks. To start...I left my apartment in Pennsylvania and moved the car full of stuff that I decided to keep back to my parents place in Michigan.
The first few days back in my home state I spent catching up with my extended family that I haven't seen in years. It was great to see everyone and learn what is happening in their lives too.
During my time there, I had make what may seem like a crazy choice, but I decided to take a huge step of faith and jump into this new adventure. My acceptance to join Mercy Ships happened 5 weeks prior to my departure date. That doesn't give me much time to figure out where the finances are coming from, purchase a ticket, and get everything accomplished before leaving the country for 10 months.
Long story short, I had to make the decision to buy my plane ticket even before I had the funding figured out. Basically, this opportunity has been a real growing process!!! I had to quit my job before I received my official acceptance, don't have a lot of time to prepare everything, and then having to purchase my place tickets before I have the financial support.
From the beginning I felt like God was going to be teaching me something. Well, I know that I've struggled with letting go of control and trusting Him. Before I had to take that jump, as scary as it was, I really felt that through the people around me God was telling me to trust Him to provide.
Once I decided that I was going to trust Him and jump everything is happening so fast!!! I've received enough financial support to pay for my plane ticket and the first 2 months of my crew-fees on Africa Mercy. God is proving His faithfulness and just how awesome He is. It blows my mind, I don't know where all the rest of my support is going to come from, but I know that God is in control and He will provide. I'm not saying this is easy! Everyday is a challenge of letting go of my desire to control what happens.
If I'm honest, I thought I had this all figured out and everything was going to be great...well, that may not be the case. Since I purchased my plane tickets Mercy Ships office has been working on securing my visa for me and they have run into some complications. I'm praying it will be worked out smoothly, but it's not something I can control, so I have to let go and trust that God has everything taken care of.
Why did I ever think that learning to let go was going to be easy? Somehow, I think that lesson is going to be continued over the next 10 months. It is not going to be easy, but I keep thinking to myself 'God isn't going to leave me or stretch me more than I can handle even if it seems that way.'
As I am writing this blog, and summarizing what has been happening I thought of a song that I haven't listen to in years. I was reminded of 'Awesome God' by Rich Mullins. God is showing His awesomeness!!!!
The first few days back in my home state I spent catching up with my extended family that I haven't seen in years. It was great to see everyone and learn what is happening in their lives too.
During my time there, I had make what may seem like a crazy choice, but I decided to take a huge step of faith and jump into this new adventure. My acceptance to join Mercy Ships happened 5 weeks prior to my departure date. That doesn't give me much time to figure out where the finances are coming from, purchase a ticket, and get everything accomplished before leaving the country for 10 months.
Long story short, I had to make the decision to buy my plane ticket even before I had the funding figured out. Basically, this opportunity has been a real growing process!!! I had to quit my job before I received my official acceptance, don't have a lot of time to prepare everything, and then having to purchase my place tickets before I have the financial support.
From the beginning I felt like God was going to be teaching me something. Well, I know that I've struggled with letting go of control and trusting Him. Before I had to take that jump, as scary as it was, I really felt that through the people around me God was telling me to trust Him to provide.
Once I decided that I was going to trust Him and jump everything is happening so fast!!! I've received enough financial support to pay for my plane ticket and the first 2 months of my crew-fees on Africa Mercy. God is proving His faithfulness and just how awesome He is. It blows my mind, I don't know where all the rest of my support is going to come from, but I know that God is in control and He will provide. I'm not saying this is easy! Everyday is a challenge of letting go of my desire to control what happens.
If I'm honest, I thought I had this all figured out and everything was going to be great...well, that may not be the case. Since I purchased my plane tickets Mercy Ships office has been working on securing my visa for me and they have run into some complications. I'm praying it will be worked out smoothly, but it's not something I can control, so I have to let go and trust that God has everything taken care of.
Why did I ever think that learning to let go was going to be easy? Somehow, I think that lesson is going to be continued over the next 10 months. It is not going to be easy, but I keep thinking to myself 'God isn't going to leave me or stretch me more than I can handle even if it seems that way.'
As I am writing this blog, and summarizing what has been happening I thought of a song that I haven't listen to in years. I was reminded of 'Awesome God' by Rich Mullins. God is showing His awesomeness!!!!
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