2020 has arrived...
The other day I sat in Panera with my journal and started thinking about what I'd like to accomplish in 2020. As I thought about it, I realized that I don't feel like I have a strong goal to strive for. It's kinda like, 'well, I keep saying that I want to do this but I haven't been serious about, it so maybe this year'...does that mean I'm aimlessly wondering through my own life?
As I looked back over the last year, I realized that a year ago at this time I told my manager that I was looking into travel nursing and would be leaving when I got my first contract. I remember being stressed about the change and unsure if I was ready to take the plunge. How I would feel after I started? What was the driving force behind that change? Is it my love of travel? Is it the constant change and movement that appeals to me? Is that just part of who I am? or am I running from something and I don't even realize what it is?
Or could it be something different, (the ripple effect), everything I do not only effects me, but the people around me. Does a short transient encounter with someone leave a lasting impact?
2020: What will the year bring? Who will I meet? What experiences will stand out? What will the next decade bring? Where do I want to be? What do I hope to accomplish? What are my dreams?
I feel like I have a lot more questions than answers right now. In a way, I'm okay with that, if I'd have all the answers I don't know that I would continue to search and grow as a person. Maybe I don't know where I'll be in 10 years or even where I want to be in 10 years, but to me that is part of the beauty of the journey of my life. I'm not forcing myself into something. 20 years ago I was in high-school and never had any desire to be a nurse, I had different plans. Obviously, things changed and I went to nursing school...even 10 years ago, I wouldn't have thought I'd be where I am today.
I've had great experiences combined with lots of challenges, and have grown a lot over the course of the last 10 years. Ultimately, I think that is my goal, to continue to grow in my faith and allow that to influence my life. The growth process isn't always easy or even a pleasant experience to go through, it can be painful at times. Does the pain cause me to stop and stay where I'm at because it's too painful to continue? or do I keep moving even if it's slow? There are times that I've wanted to give up because I didn't think I could keep going. In those moments, I had people around me that encouraged me and so I persevered through.
I don't expect the next 10 years to be easy, the last 10 years had both highs and lows, so I expect that to be the same in the next 10 years...life is a journey...
A journey of experiences.
A journey of pain.
A journey of joy.
A journey of happiness.
A journey of sorrow.
A journey of challenges.
A journey of growth.
Maybe I don't know where I'm going, or the impact I'll have on the people around me, or the impact they will have on me ... but that's the adventure!
The other day I sat in Panera with my journal and started thinking about what I'd like to accomplish in 2020. As I thought about it, I realized that I don't feel like I have a strong goal to strive for. It's kinda like, 'well, I keep saying that I want to do this but I haven't been serious about, it so maybe this year'...does that mean I'm aimlessly wondering through my own life?
As I looked back over the last year, I realized that a year ago at this time I told my manager that I was looking into travel nursing and would be leaving when I got my first contract. I remember being stressed about the change and unsure if I was ready to take the plunge. How I would feel after I started? What was the driving force behind that change? Is it my love of travel? Is it the constant change and movement that appeals to me? Is that just part of who I am? or am I running from something and I don't even realize what it is?
Or could it be something different, (the ripple effect), everything I do not only effects me, but the people around me. Does a short transient encounter with someone leave a lasting impact?
2020: What will the year bring? Who will I meet? What experiences will stand out? What will the next decade bring? Where do I want to be? What do I hope to accomplish? What are my dreams?
I feel like I have a lot more questions than answers right now. In a way, I'm okay with that, if I'd have all the answers I don't know that I would continue to search and grow as a person. Maybe I don't know where I'll be in 10 years or even where I want to be in 10 years, but to me that is part of the beauty of the journey of my life. I'm not forcing myself into something. 20 years ago I was in high-school and never had any desire to be a nurse, I had different plans. Obviously, things changed and I went to nursing school...even 10 years ago, I wouldn't have thought I'd be where I am today.
I've had great experiences combined with lots of challenges, and have grown a lot over the course of the last 10 years. Ultimately, I think that is my goal, to continue to grow in my faith and allow that to influence my life. The growth process isn't always easy or even a pleasant experience to go through, it can be painful at times. Does the pain cause me to stop and stay where I'm at because it's too painful to continue? or do I keep moving even if it's slow? There are times that I've wanted to give up because I didn't think I could keep going. In those moments, I had people around me that encouraged me and so I persevered through.
I don't expect the next 10 years to be easy, the last 10 years had both highs and lows, so I expect that to be the same in the next 10 years...life is a journey...
A journey of experiences.
A journey of pain.
A journey of joy.
A journey of happiness.
A journey of sorrow.
A journey of challenges.
A journey of growth.
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| The first page of my journal. |
Maybe I don't know where I'm going, or the impact I'll have on the people around me, or the impact they will have on me ... but that's the adventure!
